When suffering does not destroy you, even though you have been to the edge of the abyss, you know something that you cannot know in any other way. Someone else is sustaining you. You are indeed living by a life not your own. Or as I love to say, "Your life is not about you." It is henceforth, most truly, about God. And you are merely "free sample" of what God has always been doing. - Quote from Richard Rohr

February 05, 2006

There are 6 more of me!

Can you believe it? Six more in this world like me? The premilnary search for my bone marrow type produced 6 other people.

However, as Keith and talked with the PA (physician assistant) in the photopheresis unit, Beverly (the aforementioned PA) voiced great concern about me having a BMT. Now granted they do see the worse cases otherwise if the receiptent was doing well... well, they'd be well. Got that? The problem is that there is just not enough data at all to make a really informed decision. But, I've got God on my side and I know I can trust Him. I'm trusting that if and when a decision is to be made, He'll give me and Keith and many others: words, advice, encouragement and checks (as in checks in the spirit)!

Meanwhile, at my appointment with Dr. Duvic, Keith and I began feeling like we were back in Biblical times. You see, Dr. Duvic began speaking in parables. We felt like when Jesus says you have ears, but you do not hear. Here is how the conversation went. When Dr. Duvic mentioned that I had my HLA typing (that thing that they do so they know your bone marrow type), I said, yes, I'm really thinking that I don't want to do the BMT. Her reply? "You're in denial." Ok, what does that mean. Then she says, "well you are getting so much better, which is a good time to think about getting a BMT." Then a few minutes later she says, "Well if you don't have to get one then that would be best!" Of course, it was now 6:30 pm, yes another late appointment, and I was too tired to try and figure out what she was saying. So I'm sticking by my last paragraph.